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where am i? and where do i want to go?

there are many wants i have. many dreams and desires. i have many desires achieved now that i am living and experiencing. i have desires that are growing and expanding. i have dreams and desires that are experienced in little ways, and wanted in big ways. i have dreams and desires creating the vision of the life that i want to live.

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in all these wants of mine, the biggest desire now is to be present. be present for myself, be present for those i am sharing the moment with.

i want to be aware of the experience, enjoying the experience. i want to be connected to my inner being and connected to who i may be with. i want to be me, free of masks. i want to enjoy others for their being, no expectations and no judging, connecting to their being.

present. being. connected. life. love.

where am i? present!

where am i going? being present in the next moment!

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wanting change

i’m not happy with an experience in my journey right now, i want it to change. it is not a change that can be done quickly, it will affect many other areas of my life. i am easily overwhelmed and stressed by small triggers and need to make the change as soon as possible.

i find myself getting overtaken and lost in feelings of worry and doubt, fear of not… not finding the change i need, not acting quickly enough, not making the right choice, not living my truth.

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i am so happy and grateful for many things in areas of my life that i want to change, but so often i get caught up and swept away in the wanting of change, wanting something more that i don’t have.

and i wonder if i focused on being grateful for what was good in that area of my life, what then would i create? and how much faster could i create it?

letting go of the worry, doubt and fear. letting go the overwhelm and feeling lack.

allowing gratitude to fill me. gratitude for what is good in this part of my journey. gratitude for what i am learning and experiencing. gratitude for the challenge. gratitude for the growth. gratitude for all the pieces that were (and are) good in this piece of me that it is now time for me to change.

gratitude for growth!

what am i going to create?! it is a new adventure on this journey of my life!

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create your life

how much of life do i and should i base off of my feelings? and thoughts? what should i listen to when i am making choices for the moment and the life that i want to live?

trust my instincts, my intuition, and let my inner being guide me.

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go to my center and connect to myself where I am whole and complete. from this space, this is the space that i can trust. this is the space in me that knows what i want. it is this space that doesn’t judge and doesn’t expect.

from this inner being space i am guided to live the life that i want to live. a life of happiness and wellbeing. a life of my own journey and adventures. a life of fulfillment.

how do i know i am connected to my center, my inner being and not listening to my feelings and thoughts, but being guided by my true inner being?

i feel a calm, loving, positive energy when i am connected to my center, my inner being. being connected to my center i am free from overwhelm and stress. connected to my center i am free from judging and free from expecting.

connected to my center i trust myself that i am guiding myself to creating and experiencing the life that i want. from my center i feel love in all that i do, i feel love in the ebbs and flows that are my experiences of my life journey.

wandering thoughts

interesting how thoughts can change so much and be so different. thoughts being felt and connected to. thoughts being wanted and desired. and these feeling and thoughts will be the complete opposites of previous thoughts. what is it that causes such different thoughts, feelings and wants?

is it a difference of thinking with mind or thinking with heart? is it a difference of energy felt and had in each experience? is it a difference of how present i am in each moment of these feelings and these thoughts?

what is it to live in the present moment? to live in the now moment?

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is being in the present moment letting go of all thoughts? our minds wander so much in a day; thinking, analyzing, worrying and dreaming. what should we let go? what should we allow?

i want to be fully present in the moment, or thinking positively about what i want and what’s most important to me. i want to be connected to what’s most important to me and experiencing what bring me joy and love. i want to grow and expand with my dreams and desires. what part of this is being in the present moment?

i don’t think i can answer the question, the moment has changed. each moment is different, each experience is different. with each new moment and each new experience our thoughts will change and grow.

when i don’t like a thought i will choose to focus on the now moment. when i don’t like a thought i will choose to think positive about what i want and connect to that feeling. i will choose to make the positive feeling my now moment.

my wandering mind. where will it wander to in the next moment?

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am i being who i want to be? what do i want? what is most important to me?

i haven’t been experiencing and sharing and being and doing in all that’s important to me like i want to.

i became so focused on living life that i forgot to live life. i forgot to enjoy life and to share life.

i created this bubble around me to only let in so much. i wasn’t allowing myself to fully experience. i wasn’t allowing myself to fully be who i want to be. i wasn’t allowing myself to fully do what i want to do. and that was limiting my experiences.

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part of this bubble was created because of expectations of myself to be not perfect… but yet perfect in every way, in all areas of life. i lost touch with the growth and expansion that i expect from life and that i truly enjoy from life. i got caught up in, ‘this is what i want, so i want it now’. my wanting to be all these different things, i got lost in the being and the doing and i wasn’t experiencing life.

time to pop the bubble and begin being and doing, with all the experiences of the bumps, twists and turns, failing and trying again, and experience life. experiencing all of life fully and not just a little bubble of life of limitation.

what bubble have you placed around yourself? is it time for you to pop your bubble?

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love is?

thinking about love and what i want. thinking about what i’ve learned about love is giving and not worrying about getting. love is about the act of loving without expecting anything in return.

what does that look like?

how does that fit in with all that i want to experience and share in relationships?

a desire for a relationship, a choice to be in a relationship, then loving…

is that all there is to love?

sunshine heartis there expectation in choice? or you love yourself first, which would be in the choices you make. positive choices, choices for what you desire and what’s most important to you. the choice, it is two in one to love without expectation. choose to love without expectation. and choose to be in a relationship. and keep choosing, keep choosing to love without expectation and keeping choosing the relationships you want.

then sharing and experiencing love in a relationship. and this part is the act of love without expectation. sharing and experiencing life together in a relationship that you want. don’t expect life and love to come from the relationship, share and experience life and love in the relationship.

if you love yourself first in choosing what you desire and what’s most important to you, then when loving another you will be getting what you want. in the ups and downs and ebbs and flows of life and experiences, you will be sharing and experiencing in relationship. loving yourself is giving to yourself, loving yourself is giving to relationship and loving the other, giving to relationship and loving the other is loving yourself.

i choose my relationships. i give to my relationships and love the other. i am happy and grateful for my relationships! now… now, i am going to practice loving without expectation.

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mid-life what?

my mind was wandering around what it is that i want to experience in life. i’m ready for a big change, something more, something more fulfilling, something purpose filled.

a mid-life transformation. i would call these questions and the changes that i want to make a mid-life transformation. or maybe with how fast our world changes today, i can label it a transformation, clean and simple.

transformation, a time that you really connect to who you are and live your truth being who you want to be, doing what you want to do and experiencing what you want to experience.

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  • who do you want to be?
  • what do you want to do?
  • what do you want to experience?

a time when you are digging deep and connecting to your inner most dreams and desires. a time that you find your purpose and passion for living your life.

a time of finding what your internal compass is. what are you values? what’s most important to you? do you let your values and what’s most important to you guide you?

what experiences do you want to have?

why do you want to have that experience?

how do you want to feel in that experience?

is that what you are living?

is that what you are choosing?

life changes. life changes slow, life changes fast. have you changed with life? are you doing what you want to do and experience? are you living your truth?

expanding awareness

every decision has ripple effects into other pieces of who you are and who you are being. every decision has ripple effects into other areas of your life.

with this decision, am i being who i want to be? am i doing what i want to do? am i experiencing what i want to experience? when creating the life that i want, the decisions that i make are not always about one thing but about the whole. what is it that i want? what is my awareness?

the experiences of life create growth or can stop it. is this experience something that is going to expand my knowledge, my ideas, my awareness, the dreams and desires that i have; and help me to become aware and grow into who i want to be, what i want to do and what i want to experience?

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some decisions and experiences are clear in knowing they are supporting your being. some decisions and experiences are to expand your awareness and give direction to where you want to grow.

when you are trying new things and expanding your boundaries, it is uncomfortable to become the person you want to be if you are changing some deep beliefs and ideas on how you think you should be or how you think “life” should be. are these beliefs and ideas yours or are they from someone else, is it your belief? are these beliefs and ideas from a past experience that is no longer relevant to you now? are you choosing an experience for yourself, for pleasing somebody else or from habit?

uncomfortable decisions are a good part of life, they are decisions that support your growth, awareness and expansion being who you want to be and doing what you want to do. that is why an awareness of your being, who you want to be, what you want to do and experience and what is most important to you is important. with your awareness you can make decisions for what is most important to you to support who you want to be and do or for expanding your awareness more through new experiences.

is who i am being in this experience who i want to be tomorrow or helping me to experience new ideas for who i want to be and what i want to do? if i choose this experience, is it for this now moment or is it for creating the life that i want to live through growth?

when you are making decisions are you making the decision for what’s important to you? are you making the decision for what you want? are you making the decision for the person you want to be? are you making the decision to experience new ideas for new knowledge, new awareness and growth?

enjoy the journey! experience your life fully expanding your awareness, being and enjoying new experiences.

life ripples

there are things that i want that confuse me. they are separate things, but related and part of my whole being. I go back and forth, and up and down in my thoughts. being influenced from all the pieces of me, the pieces of each of my life areas.

the things that i want effect each other. the things that i want are constantly changing with my experiences and thoughts.

imagine a smooth lake and it begins to rain. all the droplets are one small piece of you from an area of your life. the droplet ripples out and expands, touching and joining with all the other droplets ripples becoming one. effecting and changing each other, becoming whole as new droplets continue falling and adding new experiences.

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what are you confused about? what are you going back and forth, and up and down with your thoughts about? are you aware of your thoughts and how they are changing your wants?

what is the whole being that the small pieces of you are creating? how are you growing and expanding with your life experiences and thoughts?

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say no

am i saying ‘no’ when i need to and want to?

i’m not saying ‘no’ as often as i want. maybe i’m not saying ‘no’ to some of the small things. some small things won’t matter because the outcome and effect too is small. some small things will matter if they are repeated. the outcome will change from what i want. the effect of not saying ‘no’ to the small thing over and over again will have a big effect.

saying ‘yes’ to the small thing becomes a habit resulting in saying ‘no’ to the outcome that i want. repeated again and again they can build up and become negative. repeated again and again saying ‘yes’ to the small thing will not get me to the goal i want and the life that i want to create.

what am i saying ‘yes’ to? what am i then saying ‘no’ to at the same time? a ‘yes’ for a thing, is a ‘no’ for another thing. which is the one i truly want?

“You are always only one choice away from changing your life.” ~Marcy Blochowiak

what is my awareness?

what’s important to me? what’s not?

am i living my truth in this yes/no choice?

what are you saying ‘yes’ to? what are you saying ‘no’ to? will saying ‘yes’ to the small thing create the outcome that you want? will saying ‘yes’ to the small thing again and again create the life that you want?

what’s important to you? what’s not?

are you living your truth in the yes/no choice?

live your truth!